Life without katie isnt the same and never will be the same she is a part of me and always will be.The pain is bad i admit it my necklace the one she had one just like and was buired with the chain broke the other day and i started coming unglued i said i have never taken it off i need another chain now idk what will happen without it around my neck i just might die....ive got one of moms chains on now...see my necklace consists of the charm me and her both have one of that says god be with us together and apart that my sister bought us each one and i have the letters "K" and "L" for both my nieces names and last night steven gave me a butterfly to put on it for our one year anniversary....steven has been really good to me and i love him....most guys wouldnt go out on a date with someone who had all this and still has it going on in her life but he has stood through all of this with me...sometimes i even have appoligized to him im sorry you dont have a normal girlfriend he always replys its fine i love you for who you are...im happy that he is that way yes i get aggervated at him but its cause i care...its been hard my grandpa died and we had to go out their life has just been one big storm after another.....my trip to the urgent care and er and them still not knowing whats going on with me was another storm.....its my senior year and school seems to be getting even harder every week....life itself has gotten harder but i grin and bear it because with every storm their is a rainbow following it and i keep waiting to see that rainbow havnt seen it yet but its gotta come eventually.....anyway life must go on katie wouldnt want me to sob but im crying for me im happy for her she has no pain and shes in heaven =) so im not crying for her anymore im crying for me!
I was gonna sign up to walk this year for my graduation because i wanted katie to see me walk.....and be proud of me idk if i can walk across that stage and look out into the crowd and not see her face....
God Bless
Ash
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