headed 2 new mexico

I try 2 be strong i have grinned and bared it through almost all of this when im around most people.....steven gets to be the lucky one that i will break down in front of now....it takes alot of trust for me 2 be able 2 fall apart infront of you....now im headed 2 new mexico my grandpa died this wed he was saved because of katie they are in heaven now telling each other stories and having a ball....i have 2 say my family has been through hell and it seems as if the pain will never end for us...but it will it has to....God must have much better plans for my family and me myself and my future....idk what it is now and i may not know what it was till i get to heaven but i have to have some purpouse...im still running around like a chicken with its head cut off trying to find that purpouse and get away from this pain but one day i will find it....pray for me until that day then
congradulate me for finding it
~*Ash*~