Its been three months

It's been very hard every week of the fifth of the month usually goes horrible i woke up a few days ago and decided thats not what she would want. Yesterday was the fifth it would have been 3 months since Katie went to be with Jesus. I went out with steven we had a date night i was determined to not cry for me and to enjoy it like katie would want me to and it was the hardest thing ever to do but for her i was determined because she would want me to enjoy life....thats not such an easy thing to do without your soulmate....but if you are really soulmates then you know what they would want you to do and katie would want me to enjoy my life and live it for both of us and in memory of her...she would not want me to hurt she would want me to get up and go on but think of her and smile as i go...everyone deals with grief differently everyone has a time which they can laugh and they can cry....i know i will still cry but for Katie i need to laugh!

So last night me and Steven went and saw the movie called red it was ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS!

Then came back and watched some TV! just had some alone time together which was nice because thats a very rare thing for us....so we enjoyed it...anyway i think Katie would be proud of me now....thats all i really want to do is make her proud when she looks down. So like i haven't blogged in a while so i guess i should tell y'all for Halloween we went down to Christa's house and went to Glen's(my bro in-law's father)church's fall festival...it was very hard to have katie not there but i tried to focus on laura-beth and not dwell on her not being there because thats what she would want....I just hope i can be as good of an aunt to laura-beth as i was to Katie... I have had alot i have had to think about this whole deal has changed my life before i had it all figured out now I have to start all over and figure it out...

Anyways L8er

Peace,love, & Auntie =P